This is what keeps me going: Knowing how much effort and propaganda they have put forth to demonize us and make our lives hell, and that I have never once regretted who and what I am and I know it pisses them off to no end. You know every nigger/spic/chink has woken up wishing they were White at some point. Also, every achievement or milestone feels like an even bigger accomplishment when I realize the whole world is against us and yet we still have the ability to persevere (so long as you arent crippled with depression). And, if I ever start to feel the way you are alluding to, I just think back on some of our races more trying events with overwhelming odds - Retaking the Iberian peninsula and rolling into the crusades after their incursion, the battle of Vienna, Rorke's drift, the battle of the Alamo, Rhodesia, Germany's ascent from the Weimar republic. I know the last three instances didn't exactly end in victory, but I still get inspriation knowing they tried. And that if they had a defeatist mindset, they would have never even made the attempt in the first place. I have bad days and the reality is always present, but I just do what I can for my family to make things the best that I am able - and being perpetually miserable doesn't lead down that path.