It's like an endless cycle of having my heart broken or me breaking some nice girl's heart. I have to juggle multiple women at once to not waste time because chances are these little games last 1-2 dates. This is ridiculous. If you randomly stumbled across your wife without putting in much effort, consider yourself blessed.
I'll give you hope. Your sins drive you to Christ, which is the only Hope there is in this world. He brought my wife and I together and made it possible for 5 kids (despite several miscarriages.)
Your weakness will be transformed into strength through Christ.
They can just as quickly drive a man away, or worse, drive God away from the man.