Love of money has played a big part in my life. Most of my relatives are beyond wealthy. They have more money than a peasant like me could ever know what to do with. They live on these grand estates with land enough to feed an entire city but it remains unused.
I am drawn between two lives. One, being a life of excessive opulence. I could become "one of the family," as is expected on me. I am not lazy. I have morals. I do not want to dedicate myself to money or sales as they have. I do not want to build strip malls for the yankees. I do not want to strip forests for raw materials. I don't want to play the stock market. I do not want to network with jews. I do not want a million dollars.
I want food. I want a happy family. I want a quaint little home. I want to come home after working the fields and have a couple ecstatic kids run up to me, a smiling wife and a dog. I want good friends. By God what more does a man need than this?
But they don't understand. They look down on me because I reject their offers for help. I do not want to be like them, but to obtain that little farm I need about $300,000. To make that stupid woman smile she needs more than a shack in a junk yard.
You are not "drawn between two lives, one of excessive opulence, etc.... You are being given a prime opportunity to secure your piece of the pie, of the American dream.
What you choose to do next will be your decision. You don't need to buy a Rothschild's mansion, you don't need gold toilets, but you can have whatever you want, call it quaint or a step or two above, you will be happy, and your family will be happy, and comfortable.
Money is like a tool, or a gun. It is better to have it and not need it, than to need it and not have it.
Put in the time to make yourself somewhat rich, but do not sell your soul about it. Pray every day and remember this post that you made and why. When you have enough money to start executing your goals, pray again, and ask what He would have you do first with it.