Writing the title made me see that it's not the hating per se that is consuming me but rather that the people fucking up the world, their greediness, their degeneracy, their arrogance, their pettiness, their indifference, their stupidity, their superficiality does not get punished.
I am Christian and i understand in an abstract way that they will be punished eventually but i does not help me get over it. Or maybe they will be all forgiven which only irritates me further even though i'm supposed to forgive them too. When all i can think of is that they should suffer (not die or anything, just pain. Not induced by me, just pain that happens to them in various ways)
I also know it's not up to me to judge but FUCK ME there are so many people that are transgressing so bad.
I want out of this rollercoaster of emotions. I don't want to be indifferent to all the evil in the world, i want to know what's happening but at the same time my reaction to people's actions is taking a real toll on my mental and physical health.
It's not like i can laser focus my hate towards them by quantum waves or something, it's only hurting me.
Because it's a cope, wishful thinking. If nobody brings justice to them (in time), there will be no justice. Injustice happens a LOT, so it's nothing exceptional, but it stings a little that we live societies which allow that to happen, or worse, even cheer it on.
> Or maybe they will be all forgiven
No, but they can live their lives until they are old or dead, and benefit from their actions for their entire lives.
> I also know it's not up to me to judge
Who judged they are allowed to exploit and ruin everything? There is no judge in play here. They just do it.
> I want out of this rollercoaster of emotions.
Be selfish and focus on yourself then. Don't behave in a way you'd hate yourself for, and work towards becoming proud of who you are and your accomplishments.
> but at the same time my reaction to people's actions is taking a real toll on my mental and physical health.
> it's only hurting me.
Then stop consuming news. One reason I do not watch any type of news for... always, is because it would drive me extremely mad. I mean "nigger does nigger things" is not news-worthy, or "politician causes harm to the country" - that's the default.
So either you decide to *do something*, or you decide to *do nothing*. If it's the latter, as is for ~100% of us, don't ruin yourself in hopes that *someone else* will *do something*.
Don't "wait" for anything to happen you have no influence on. If you can do a *little*, spread the word and lead by example. Otherwise never play along the jewish bullshit ideology. If someone wants to hear my opinion on niggers, shitskins and jews, I'll gladly deliver. I will never be a mouthpiece for the jews.