Everybody I know with an absent father is fucked up. Unsuccessful with money, jobs, women, everything about their lives is fucked. That's not the point. I don't even know wtf is going on now.
In the past week I've seen some shit. I was driving home a few days ago and 2 girls who live in the neighborhood were walking the street in bikinis. They're like 14. Tf. This isn't the first time this has happened.
Today at the store there was a man and woman and their daughter. This little girl was probably 4. Dressed like fucking daisy duke. It was actually revolting and sort of made me sick. What kind of degenerate fuckwad do you have to be to dress your fucking infant up in that type of shit?
Absent fathers will fuck you up but what if your father is of that caliber?
Aside from having provided actual financial support, there's pretty much no difference between my old man and the nigger dad who "went out for cigarettes" one day, and I've been an complete fucking mess for my entire life.
I often wish I had only inherited his alcoholism so that I had a more potent reprieve than my actual vices from the bottomless pit of psychic pain that is day to day life.
And yet he does, so I continue to place one foot in front of the other, however small the steps, lest I scorn the Almighty.
The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
The best thing you can do is raise your kids differently from how you were raised; you already know the pitfalls so you're in the best position to do so.
Without going into detail, I have... *problems* related to sexuality stemming from early childhood. I'm through my mid twenties and have never had any meaningful contact with the opposite sex. Among the many problems I already struggle with, psychological castration is the most colossal one with me.
And if you can't have kids and really want to *do* something to help out our situation... Well, there are no easy roads before you, to say the least.