The idea of fixing things wholesale can be used as an excuse not to do anything, because the whole is so daunting. Instead, make incremental changes. Remove one thing that damages you, and make it stick for a month. When you are tempted (you will be) or stumble back into an old habit, remind yourself verbally that you are not a nigger and you can control yourself, even when it doesn't feel good.
And tbh you need a good head on your shoulders more than you need conpro.
But... Without internet how will i even access the conpro?
And tbh you need a good head on your shoulders more than you need conpro.