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I'm a white man in the UK, and...

I feel so overwhelmingly exhausted it might kill me. I don't want it to kill me. I don't plan on hurting myself or others. I need advice protecting my mind. I need help getting back my energy and ability to enjoy things. If I rest, or try to enjoy anything ever, I feel guilty because I'm not doing anything to help my people survive oppression. It hurts.

When I try to write, it feels impossible to write anything good. Last time I wrote about how much it sucks to live in this regularly bombed dystopian nightmare of a country at constant war, cunts on the internet mocked and harassed me for threatening the lies their regimes told. They demonised me without restraint or mercy. Even mocked me for having a heart condition and being a cancer survivor. My assumption that everyone's human deep down and will be good in places where it's safe to express that humanity was proven false. It feels impossible to convince anyone we're people who don't deserve to be killed and humiliated and wiped out and spat upon. It feels impossible to write anything where we're allowed to exist freely. Fictional worlds where we can be good to one another without our enemies killing us feel as impossible to believe in as worlds where we fight back and win. And when I try writing fiction that isn't about my people, and I try writing fiction about fictional characters I like, it feels like I'm betraying my people. Fiddling while Rome burns.
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Reddestlegsaround on scored.co
2 days ago 14 points (+0 / -0 / +14Score on mirror ) 1 child
Volunteer in your community, ideally in a traditional white male culture. Instead of feeling helpless make an effort to improve things locally and turn off the news. I'm in the UK, what you see on the TV and what you get when you interact with real people are not an exact match. Find like minded people, go to a pub at a push.
OttomanJannisary on scored.co
2 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 ) 1 child
Stupid advice. He needs to fix his health first.
CainistSL on scored.co
2 days ago 2 points (+0 / -0 / +2Score on mirror )
My health was the first thing I fixed.
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NiggerWithAForklift on scored.co
2 days ago 10 points (+0 / -0 / +10Score on mirror )
Go on a vacation, this is not your sole responsibility
steele2 on scored.co
2 days ago 4 points (+0 / -0 / +4Score on mirror )
You need good people around you.

Drop everything and attend your next local White nationalist rally.

Drive for two hours if you need to.

Your fellow Whites will welcome you with open arms.

Take a notepad so you can write down the names of the special people you meet or the names of the different White nationalist group signs. < don't do it in front of them because they may think you're a cop >

Introduce yourself like an old friend. Write their names down so you can greet them at the next demonstration or rally as if they are old friends.

Research any groups you like and sign up and attend their gatherings.

This will heal your soul.

There's a chance the police won't like it, but that will put some excitement and fire in your belly... also, this needs to be done because complicity is surrender.

This will add fire, love and purpose to your life.

You'll risk getting in trouble with your ZOG and possibly get arrested or cancelled and lose your job, but I suspect you'll feel worse for not fighting for your birthright.

No White person ever left a White nationalist rally feeling disillusioned.
PillarOfWisdom on scored.co
2 days ago 4 points (+0 / -0 / +4Score on mirror )
I feel ya...that is one of the marxist's goals, to demoralize. I would suggest turning off all news. For that matter, get rid of your TVs so you're not paying that silly TV tax. There is no news you need. The weather is nice to have but, like the rest of the "news", there's nothing you can do about it so why worry about it?

Also, as others have said, try to find like-minded people. For me, the guys in my church have helped keep me sane. You have be careful with whoever you tribe-up with as they may be closet marxist, or worse, gov't plants.

I take my mind off of the gov't narrative by reading and gardening. With gardening, I try to make my house look nice with, oddly enough, David Austin Roses from England. If nothing else, the gardening itself clears my head while keeping me physically active. As far as reading, I don't read anything political because that would just be a longer version of the news. I read cookbooks and try to work on my cooking skills. We can't trust the food supply so it's better to make things myself.

I have family that lives in Scotland and is married to a Scot. They have a kid and I've sent over some articles I've found here about the madness going on in the UK to them. The Scot asked me to stop sending anything like that because he's worried everything is being scanned. That's crazy but understand their worry.

Best of luck fellow White man. Be strong and have faith in Christ.
PurestEvil on scored.co
2 days ago 4 points (+0 / -0 / +4Score on mirror )
Well, Britain sucks hard. It is currently the MOST dystopian country, right after Germany. Whatever China does doesn't even come close to those, and they used to be our primary mass-surveillance, censorship dystopia to point at.

> It feels impossible to convince anyone we're people who don't deserve to be killed and humiliated and wiped out and spat upon.

If you want to be convincing, you have to approach it smartly. Prepare things you would say, prepare the process, know your shit and know how to respond. And know how to think quickly - but if you can't, use memory and preparation.

For example double down and provoke them. Tell them that you agree that they deserve to be genocided, but why you? Because your people stopped Africans from cannibalism for a while? Built sewage systems in India? Created the concept of not-completely-corrupt police and government? Go for a provocative, sarcastic approach. Or think of other ways.

> It feels impossible to write anything where we're allowed to exist freely.

On the internet? Not impossible for me. But as a Brit, you'll need to make sure to stay anonymous.

> Fictional worlds where we can be good to one another without our enemies killing us feel as impossible to believe in as worlds where we fight back and win.

Well, my game will have that backstory. Whites developed FTL, fled Earth, left it to shitskins and jews, found a new planet, lived in peace for a century. Shitskins picked up the left-over technology, walked up, wanted to settle there too, got annihilated, and the Whites realized this will only end if all brownoid scum is wiped out from existence. In the game this ensures players have something to shoot.

> And when I try writing fiction that isn't about my people, and I try writing fiction about fictional characters I like, it feels like I'm betraying my people.

Do what you are passionate about. It doesn't have to be on-the-nose, you can use fictional settings. In my case faggotry has been cured, and niggers are too worthless to bring into space, so they've been wiped out by the other brownoids.

Trust me, the appeal to anti-subhuman and anti-nigger literature and fiction must be on an all-time high in Britain, possibly Europe- and US-wide too.

For me, that's not my main motivating factor. I want to change minds of people in the direction of TND and TKD. But also create a qualitative game, something that regardless of its setting is great.
NoRefunds2 on scored.co
2 days ago 3 points (+0 / -0 / +3Score on mirror ) 1 child
oh no, ranjeet is getting depressed!
CainistSL on scored.co
2 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 ) 1 child
I'm white you retarded nigger.
NoRefunds2 on scored.co
1 day ago 1 point (+0 / -0 / +1Score on mirror )
> white

Lower case W, now we know you're definitely a ranjeet
degene on scored.co
2 days ago 3 points (+0 / -0 / +3Score on mirror )
Go for walks.
Hit the gym.
Eat regularly, proper meals.
Plan to improve your position, risks for gains.
But go take a walk outside first.
BreadandWinePilled on scored.co
2 days ago 3 points (+0 / -0 / +3Score on mirror )
There is only so much that one man can do. Saving our race is a marathon, not a sprint- pace yourself and don't run your spirit into the ground.
TallestSkil on scored.co
2 days ago 3 points (+0 / -0 / +3Score on mirror ) 1 child
Either move off your island or start killing nonwhites. Or just kill yourself. You have options. Don’t pretend otherwise.
Vlad_The_Impaler on scored.co
2 days ago 5 points (+0 / -0 / +5Score on mirror )
suicide is sin, and gay.

If you're that blackpilled, at least go out in a blaze of glory. Take a synagogue out before you go.
ScallionPancake on scored.co
2 days ago 2 points (+0 / -0 / +2Score on mirror ) 1 child
What country do you live in
CainistSL on scored.co
2 days ago 1 point (+0 / -0 / +1Score on mirror ) 1 child
I live in the UK, unfortunately.
Vlad_The_Impaler on scored.co
2 days ago 2 points (+0 / -0 / +2Score on mirror )
Maybe you should explore options of moving.

It might be just what you need. A fresh start somewhere else.

It doesn't sound like you like where you live Nothing's going for ya. No great career prospects? No woman you are dating? No opportunities or great friends? Not liking UK anymore?

Maybe you can find a new place to live and get a fresh start.

I did it once. I was kind of at a dead end, nothing going for me, no girlfriend no job no great friends. I was in a rut. I packed a couple bags and traveled to a couple places and settled down in new town in 6 weeks and a whole lot of new great opportunities and people came my way. I joined a church in new town and made lots of good connections there too
OttomanJannisary on scored.co
2 days ago 1 point (+0 / -0 / +1Score on mirror )
Read the book We Want to Live by Aajonus Vonderplanitz. It will change your life.
Toujours2 on scored.co
2 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 ) 1 child
I’ve heard mythelene blue helps with the exhaustion/brain fog. Have you recently had Covid? I’m always cosmically exhausted for several months after Covid. Heavy metal detox helps with that for me. Godspeed.
Vlad_The_Impaler on scored.co
2 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 ) 1 child
I drink a gallon of milk about every 3 days. Makes me feel strong like a bull.
polskagurom on scored.co
1 day ago 0 points (+0 / -0 )
pasteurized or raw? cuz i also drink like 2/3 cups a day but the raw one is pretty hard to find in my country
the-new-style on scored.co
2 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 )
Go for a walk in the Peak District
IGOexiled on scored.co
2 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 )
You're strobing and modularizing. I assume you used mantra to cope with your health treatment. It's a technique, but not a mentality to hold longterm:

*Change your vocabulary, both externally and internally. It should affect your life in a way that you can lean into.*

> I feel so overwhelmingly exhausted

> I feel guilty

> it feels impossible to write anything good

> It feels impossible to convince

> It feels impossible to write anything

> it feels feels like I'm betraying

Okay, that is a lot of introspection about the hormones in your bloodstream. Now think about something else. Perhaps think about something external to yourself. Stop defaulting to thought patterns that you've already exhausted.

When you notice yourself noticing yourself feeling, stop feeling and think about something useful.
Fabius on scored.co
1 day ago 0 points (+0 / -0 )
Survive is all you really have to do.
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