I'm a white man in the UK, and...
I feel so overwhelmingly exhausted it might kill me. I don't want it to kill me. I don't plan on hurting myself or others. I need advice protecting my mind. I need help getting back my energy and ability to enjoy things. If I rest, or try to enjoy anything ever, I feel guilty because I'm not doing anything to help my people survive oppression. It hurts.
When I try to write, it feels impossible to write anything good. Last time I wrote about how much it sucks to live in this regularly bombed dystopian nightmare of a country at constant war, cunts on the internet mocked and harassed me for threatening the lies their regimes told. They demonised me without restraint or mercy. Even mocked me for having a heart condition and being a cancer survivor. My assumption that everyone's human deep down and will be good in places where it's safe to express that humanity was proven false. It feels impossible to convince anyone we're people who don't deserve to be killed and humiliated and wiped out and spat upon. It feels impossible to write anything where we're allowed to exist freely. Fictional worlds where we can be good to one another without our enemies killing us feel as impossible to believe in as worlds where we fight back and win. And when I try writing fiction that isn't about my people, and I try writing fiction about fictional characters I like, it feels like I'm betraying my people. Fiddling while Rome burns.
Drop everything and attend your next local White nationalist rally.
Drive for two hours if you need to.
Your fellow Whites will welcome you with open arms.
Take a notepad so you can write down the names of the special people you meet or the names of the different White nationalist group signs. < don't do it in front of them because they may think you're a cop >
Introduce yourself like an old friend. Write their names down so you can greet them at the next demonstration or rally as if they are old friends.
Research any groups you like and sign up and attend their gatherings.
This will heal your soul.
There's a chance the police won't like it, but that will put some excitement and fire in your belly... also, this needs to be done because complicity is surrender.
This will add fire, love and purpose to your life.
You'll risk getting in trouble with your ZOG and possibly get arrested or cancelled and lose your job, but I suspect you'll feel worse for not fighting for your birthright.
No White person ever left a White nationalist rally feeling disillusioned.