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Most media is depressing and jewish and even when it isn't it fails to interest, socialization is stressful and intimidating, work is monotonous and unfulfilling, I can't get a woman despite my standards basically only relating to her race and fertility, and I don't see anything else to do. You could tell me to get away from the internet for a while but then I'm left with nothing but food.
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PurestEvil on scored.co
13 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 ) 1 child
> Even things I've put ungodly amounts of time into I've remained bad at

So far you've only mentioned fishing, DND and "etcetera." So into what did you invest in ungodly amounts of time?

> You're just proving my point, there's a massive pile of shit and the best we can hope for is to throw our work into that very same pile where it will be lost and blend in among the rest.

What pile? This is just pure nihilism. If you truly believe in nihilism, prove its worth by killing yourself. Seriously. If you don't, you don't believe in nihilism, so don't use their argumentation. Aka "everything is pointless, so why bother?"

I'm not going to argue the value of basic imperatives of existence.

> All the greats

You don't have to be "great." What absurd bar are you setting for yourself? Do you think you are among the 0.001%- of humans? With that attitude you should be grateful to be in the upper half first.

> but rather countless small risks that all pile up

So far we reached 0 activities. I think you will endure that amount of "risks" piling up. I have high hopes in you.

> and just going out and wandering won't make my life feel any more purposeful nor will it make me feel less lonely when I'm lying in bed trying to sleep.

Well, actually it will. You are in a state of total stagnation and purposelessness. By doing *something* you'd incentivize yourself to do *something* else, which may lead to becoming more attractive as a person, which in turn may lead to not being lonely.

> My life wouldn't be much more interesting if I went out

Yeah, that's the opposite of true. Aka total bullshit. If you do nothing, you experience nothing, you witness nothing, thus your life remains boring. Really, all it takes is to *do something* in order for things to happen that make you interesting.

Go ahead, tell me the most interesting thing about yourself. Let's see where we draw the line here.

> why even bother making something?

See, creative people simply have the natural urge to creation, and mundane reasons like not having someone patting you on the head are not enough not to create. Just as we speak I am creating text, knowing well it's very likely pointless. I *create* solely for my personal entertainment here. And the intent is to help you, but you've shown that you reject any attempt at help, and just want to... cry and complain. I've been told that about you as well. I mean if you seek pity, you're at the wrong place. Weakness disgusts me.

> I just feel like I'd be pouring time and money into what effectively amounts to trash?

But you do not even want to *create* something. You don't want to do anything. But you do want to do something. So what the fuck is that paradox? What do you expect?
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TCDforver on scored.co
13 days ago -1 points (+0 / -0 / -1Score on mirror ) 1 child
>So far you've only mentioned fishing, DND and "etcetera." So into what did you invest in ungodly amounts of time?

Gaming, specifically CoD back in the late 2000s and War Thunder as of more recent times. Literal thousands of hours spent only to be objectively below average.

>What pile? This is just pure nihilism. If you truly believe in nihilism, prove its worth by killing yourself. Seriously. If you don't, you don't believe in nihilism, so don't use their argumentation. Aka "everything is pointless, so why bother?" I'm not going to argue the value of basic imperatives of existence.

The figurative pile of shit that is the sea of everything that has come before and been forgotten despite being easily accessible. Competing with countless other works that have come before which there is no real way to distinguish your work from.

I'm not saying "everything is pointless", rather I am questioning the value of art and media that exists without breaking new ground or creating a cultural footprint. In the internet age you aren't just competing to stand out among a local few, you're competing with everything that has been digitized and at that point what do you even expect to contribute?

>You don't have to be "great." What absurd bar are you setting for yourself? Do you think you are among the 0.001%- of humans? With that attitude you should be grateful to be in the upper half first.

At one time that was true when competition was scarce and local, but now we're small fish in a big ocean and past works can be copied infinitely without loss so there is no scarcity that would lead to people settling for an inferior product.

>So far we reached 0 activities. I think you will endure that amount of "risks" piling up. I have high hopes in you.

I could be attacked either by animals or people, I could be hit by a car, I could get lost. I don't know, I just worry when leaving the house.

>Well, actually it will. You are in a state of total stagnation and purposelessness. By doing something you'd incentivize yourself to do something else, which may lead to becoming more attractive as a person, which in turn may lead to not being lonely.

I've tried doing things, it's hard to find anything to do and there isn't much of anything that interests me.

>Yeah, that's the opposite of true. Aka total bullshit. If you do nothing, you experience nothing, you witness nothing, thus your life remains boring. Really, all it takes is to do something in order for things to happen that make you interesting.

When I have gone out I do nothing, experience nothing, and witness nothing. My most eventful outings in life have been when my parents invite me to hang out with their friends where I'm still mostly a passive observer, but when I've gone out on my own it's just an uneventful experience.

>But you do not even want to create something. You don't want to do anything. But you do want to do something. So what the fuck is that paradox? What do you expect?

Looking for answer for how everyone else manages to find the motivation to do things and manage to have such eventful lives when everything I try seems to provide a completely different experience
PurestEvil on scored.co
12 days ago 1 point (+0 / -0 / +1Score on mirror ) 1 child
> Literal thousands of hours spent only to be objectively below average.

Then play something that isn't PvP based. Deep Rock Galactic, Helldivers 2, Starcraft 2 Coop, Path of Exile, Last Epoch to name a few. PvP games have that peculiar condition to make everybody feel like shit, because it naturally leads to a 50% win-rate. You will win or lose until it reaches that 50% mark on average. And when you get better, you still end up with that 50%.

> and at that point what do you even expect to contribute?

As of me, I am working on a space combat/exploration game. Aside from various aspects that make it an actual game, it allows the player to traverse the universe in FTL free flight. The player perceives the stars, planets, moons passing by, and also see giant stars, black holes, magnetars, neutron stars, etc. It's an experience that apparently didn't exist before, because in games it is normal that when you go to a specific solar system, you just get a visual effect and then appear right there. Or you have "warp gates" and can't traverse to anything outside the hand-made world.

And it's a global single realm hosted by a server-cluster. That appears to be novel technology btw. I just have to do the final integration later on. There won't be restrictions to speech, only technical restrictions against spam.

So, it's something new. If you consider things like this irrelevant, fine. Another of my goals is TND and TKD, but for that I need more capital and financial liberty.

> no scarcity that would lead to people settling for an inferior product.

You could literally build a wooden table, sell it and make a lot of money out of it. My brother has made one and uses it himself - it's a massive, long table he made from the wood around his house. It has 4 massive legs. Its worth is sure between 300-600€+, because a table like that can literally not be bought anywhere.

And the concept of "table" sure isn't novel, right?

> I could be attacked either by animals or people, I could be hit by a car, I could get lost.

And? Would there anything of value be lost?

You know, when I hiked there, I went no matter what. Snow, cold, warm, rain, mud. I went even 7 hours once, and after 4 hours I noticed I started to get exhausted. But there was no alternative to getting home. That's the beauty of it - there was no way to just give up. After that time I was lying flat on the ground a few times. Just lying on the grass for 15 minutes.

One time I went 6 hours, and 3 of it it was raining. I didn't even wear a jacket.

> I've tried doing things

Let's calm down. We are at fishing, video gaming, DND and "etcetera." You've barely "tried" anything. None of these even relate to something productive.

It's basically the [meme](https://i.pinimg.com/564x/40/bf/b6/40bfb6a76627032773450ddee967be36.jpg): "I tried nothing and I am all out of ideas."

> When I have gone out I do nothing, experience nothing, and witness nothing.

How the fuck do you do that? Are you sitting in the corner, talk to nobody, and then go home? Just going through the motions so that you can say "I did this"?

> for how everyone else manages to find the motivation to do things

Well, then you got your answer. But it appears to me you are content with the status quo of your life. It's as if all you want is to complain, but don't actually want to change anything. You resist any attempt to change.

Which unironically is something you *should* change. You are your own cockblock. You are the perpetrator of your own misery, and you seem to thrive in it.
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TCDforver on scored.co
12 days ago -1 points (+0 / -0 / -1Score on mirror ) 1 child
>Then play something that isn't PvP based. Deep Rock Galactic, Helldivers 2, Starcraft 2 Coop, Path of Exile, Last Epoch to name a few. PvP games have that peculiar condition to make everybody feel like shit, because it naturally leads to a 50% win-rate. You will win or lose until it reaches that 50% mark on average. And when you get better, you still end up with that 50%.

That's only true of you're focusing on win/loss in a team game. I have always been more focused on KDR and solo play if possible and I still have it burned into my mind all the years I played CoD only to end up with THREE TIMES AS MANY DEATHS PER KILL.

>You could literally build a wooden table, sell it and make a lot of money out of it. My brother has made one and uses it himself - it's a massive, long table he made from the wood around his house. It has 4 massive legs. Its worth is sure between 300-600€+, because a table like that can literally not be bought anywhere.

I wouldn't be able to find a buyer and it would just sit unused taking up space, and if I ever needed to get rid of it my best bet would be to list it as free firewood and I'd be out hundreds of dollars in material costs because the finished product ended up having less value that the sum of it's materials. Creating physical objects independently might as well just be burning money if you don't have the fame and connections needed to get buyers.

>And? Would there anything of value be lost?

My life is one of the only things of value I have, and my death will be the only chance I will ever had to do something with my life without fear of repercussion, I'd hate to waste it on an accidental and easily avoidable death.

>You know, when I hiked there, I went no matter what. Snow, cold, warm, rain, mud. I went even 7 hours once, and after 4 hours I noticed I started to get exhausted. But there was no alternative to getting home. That's the beauty of it - there was no way to just give up. After that time I was lying flat on the ground a few times. Just lying on the grass for 15 minutes.

Sounds horrible, whenever I'm outside I feel like I need to keep moving to minimize chance for bugs to attack me, often times I think I'm being bitten only to find that there's nothing there.

>Let's calm down. We are at fishing, video gaming, DND and "etcetera." You've barely "tried" anything. None of these even relate to something productive

Productivity doesn't make life worth living, otherwise sweatshops would be the happiest place on earth and wouldn't even need suicide prevention. I've worked in the past and it was a struggle to keep myself motivated to live knowing that there's nothing more to life for me except slaving away to enrich others and support a world that endlessly abuses me and blames me for my suffering.

>It's basically the meme: "I tried nothing and I am all out of ideas."

Because nothing interests me and nothing I've tried has been enjoyable. Am I meant to just endlessly force myself to do things I know I'll hate?

>How the fuck do you do that? Are you sitting in the corner, talk to nobody, and then go home? Just going through the motions so that you can say "I did this"?

I basically feel like that's all I can do. My most exciting and eventful outings have been when my parents drag me along to hang out with their friends and even then I'm usually on the sidelines after the usual greetings.

>Well, then you got your answer. But it appears to me you are content with the status quo of your life. It's as if all you want is to complain, but don't actually want to change anything. You resist any attempt to change

I don't see any changes I could make that would meaningfully change my situation, you're just telling me to go do stuff and pretend my problems are solved no matter how lonely and miserable I remain.

>Which unironically is something you should change. You are your own cockblock. You are the perpetrator of your own misery, and you seem to thrive in it.

Everyone tells me that but it couldn't be farther from the truth.
PurestEvil on scored.co
12 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 ) 1 child
> will be the only chance I will ever had to do something with my life without fear of repercussion

Buddy, I wasn't telling you to deep dive into a volcano. I talked about going into the woods and touching grass. It's a near zero risk activity. But apparently being outside 5 minutes is akin to a death sentence to you.

> a world that endlessly abuses me and blames me for my suffering.

You make your own life miserable. Don't blame """the world""" (whatever that means) for your own actions and inactions.

> Am I meant to just endlessly force myself to do things I know I'll hate?

Well, your complaint would have merit if you'd actually put in effort in doing anything.

Try nothing, do nothing, be useless.

> Everyone tells me that but it couldn't be farther from the truth.

Perhaps - think about it - "everyone" is right about you? What level of cognitive dissonance is that even? How comes some random stranger from the internet happens to agree with these "everyones"?

You are dishonest with yourself, aka lying. Which means delusional. You are riddled with misconceptions and fallacies, and on top of that you are extremely lazy and a coward. And this makes you narcissistic even, because all you can talk about is yourself. You have no hobbies, no work, barely any experiences apparently, so your biggest topic is "woe is me."

With this attitude you won't even get close to a woman, if that's your goal. And that's better for humanity. You're a pile of misery and depression, and you seem to thrive in playing victim. That's utterly repulsive on a societal level. Just the off-chance that your psychological condition is genetic is reason enough to not reproduce.

And based on what I've perceived, you seem to thrive in getting criticized, like a masochist. You completely immunized yourself from ever having your status quo improved. The worse my opinion gets about you, the more you get off.

Well, fascinating... and horrifying.
TCDforver on scored.co
12 days ago 0 points (+0 / -0 ) 1 child
>Buddy, I wasn't telling you to deep dive into a volcano. I talked about going into the woods and touching grass. It's a near zero risk activity. But apparently being outside 5 minutes is akin to a death sentence to you.

It's low risk but also no gain. Why would I take *any* risk without anything to gain from it?

>You make your own life miserable. Don't blame """the world""" (whatever that means) for your own actions and inactions.

All I want in life is a woman but I've been denied the chance to get one and am regularly treated as being at fault for it. It has nothing to do with my actions or inactions.

>Well, your complaint would have merit if you'd actually put in effort in doing anything.

Nothing I've tried showed even the smallest chance of success so I keep looking for more advice and keep getting told to do basically the same things I've already tried and them am told that I haven't tried them before.

>Perhaps - think about it - "everyone" is right about you? What level of cognitive dissonance is that even? How comes some random stranger from the internet happens to agree with these "everyones"?

Because only the people allowed to speak or exist in society are the ones who share in your collective delusion of a just world where men like me could succeed. I have been censored literally hundreds of times in countless places for on topic discussion of the reality I am forced to endure and everybody tries to gaslight me into thinking it's my fault.

>You are dishonest with yourself, aka lying. Which means delusional. You are riddled with misconceptions and fallacies, and on top of that you are extremely lazy and a coward. And this makes you narcissistic even, because all you can talk about is yourself. You have no hobbies, no work, barely any experiences apparently, so your biggest topic is "woe is me."

How am I being dishonest for reccongizing that women refuse to even let me get far enough for those other things to matter?

>With this attitude you won't even get close to a woman, if that's your goal. And that's better for humanity. You're a pile of misery and depression, and you seem to thrive in playing victim. That's utterly repulsive on a societal level. Just the off-chance that your psychological condition is genetic is reason enough to not reproduce.

Yep, just more hatred and abuse purely because women don't want me and there's nothing I can do about it. fuck you.

>And based on what I've perceived, you seem to thrive in getting criticized, like a masochist. You completely immunized yourself from ever having your status quo improved. The worse my opinion gets about you, the more you get off.

 Nothing I've tried has improved my situation, my life remains stagnant.
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