Have you ever considered pursuing your artistic voice? Could be engineering, painting, making stuff with 3D printing, etc. Like have you considered pursuing gaining some sort of skill set you’ve always been interested in? I feel like a lot of depressive feelings come from a lack of action. So just pursuing learning how to make stuff and build is a good way out.
You should check out maker spaces/hacker spaces - it’s basically a non-profit where people pool tools together, woodworking tools, metal working tools, forges, ceramics, 3D printing. It just depends on what your local branch has. But basically you pay a monthly fee and you can go use all the equipment to make stuff. Lots of times people offer classes too to train you on how certain tools work.
Could be something to look into to help get you out of your rut. You’ll also meet a lot of high energy, high IQ people there so it might be a place to find some stimulation from other technical, engaged people.
You should check out maker spaces/hacker spaces - it’s basically a non-profit where people pool tools together, woodworking tools, metal working tools, forges, ceramics, 3D printing. It just depends on what your local branch has. But basically you pay a monthly fee and you can go use all the equipment to make stuff. Lots of times people offer classes too to train you on how certain tools work.
Could be something to look into to help get you out of your rut. You’ll also meet a lot of high energy, high IQ people there so it might be a place to find some stimulation from other technical, engaged people.
I've found small victories are the key. Fix something around the house, or something to that effect. I like wrenching on ATVs as well - maybe something like that might interest you. Look on FB for groups from your area, they'll often organize trips with a bunch of people. Lots of friends to be made offroading as you're pulling each other out of the mud. You might meet someone interesting or someone who has an interesting sister.
Once I gave up the idea that I may never marry or reproduce I felt a sense of calm. I want to serve the Lord first, and foremost, if these things can be added onto me in my quest, awesome. If not, that’s okay too.
Read John 15
https://www.esv.org/John+15/
These ? Might seem anecdotal but they are not.
Are you a combat veteran, are you fornicating out of wedlock and are you living in some leftist shithole?
Edit: Is this your first LTR with a woman?
>Is this your first LTR with a woman?
Yes.
You’ll be ok fren. This is all totally normal. It just means you’re a normal well functioning human being and not a POS socio/psychopath. I know it’s hard to believe in our current kike world, but that’s a good thing. You’ll come out of this stronger than before, and will be better for it. Just curious, but what age range are you?
>the despair/depression may last up to a month
I think I have been living with depression for my entire life tbh. I just never really thought about it.
This is one of the core tenets of this forum, to stop ourselves from mindless consumption to fill a void in ourselves that can't be filled by consumption and wanting for more. We must be continually thankful for what we have, a necessary mindset to stave off depression and useless anger. God is teaching you a very hard lesson, but one of the most important ones. God taught me the same thing when I had on/off depression starting when I was 15.
The best thing that got me through the depression was finding someone I could talk to, to just listen to me vent. I recommend a male friend or a close family member.
Stay strong brother. I care about you, and I know everyone else here does, too.