Sounds like you need to change up your physical routine then. I’m guessing you lift weights regularly. Maybe grab some sandbags, and/or kettlebells and start training with those for a few months to mix it up. You could also join the local volleyball/dodgeball league. If you don’t have a dog, dogs are great at taking you out of negative mindsets, and AT LEAST in my AO, the dog parks are really nice, and most of the people have been extremely based, and openly talk about pitbulls just like niggers. You might even meet you another woman there. 🤷🏼♂️