I have some serious issues lads and I think it's all spawning from crippling depression. I simply can not find a purpose in life. Furthermore, I am horribly lonely. I finally managed to have a girl stick around for a few months but she left me. For those few months I felt like a real person.
I simply can't get motivated enough to pull myself from the pit. Consume Product and clean living kings turned my life around years ago but I am falling back into the abyss.
How does one cure crippling depression? God's trials are killing me.
With that out of the way, next you need to get your diet in check, and start some type of physical training even if it’s just walking 30 minutes a day around the neighborhood. BABY STEPS are monumental when you’re on the brink of deep depression. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
I clean up litter almost everyday after dropping the kids at school. It can be temporarily frustrating to see so many of my neighbours are pigs, but it always gives me a sense of purpose when I finish cleaning an area, knowing that it's now better off for me, my kids, and my neighbours for my having been there.
If that's not your thing, you could clean up grafitti, plant gardens on unused land, or just ask your neighbours if they need anything. I can almost guarantee that, after a month or so, you will start meeting the people around you who actually care.