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It sounds like you are trying to live for others not for the Lord first.

Once I gave up the idea that I may never marry or reproduce I felt a sense of calm. I want to serve the Lord first, and foremost, if these things can be added onto me in my quest, awesome. If not, that’s okay too.

Read John 15

https://www.esv.org/John+15/

These ? Might seem anecdotal but they are not.

Are you a combat veteran, are you fornicating out of wedlock and are you living in some leftist shithole?

I agree with the family part, but I think what he means is that someone who’s already having issues doesn’t need a female around that can possibly, and almost always does cause more stress and distractions. Your current scenario is a perfect example. Youre depression is exacerbated by the fact that a woman left you. It never feels good, and it’s normal to be broken up about it for a week, maybe two if you’ve been with her for a few months or more, but if it’s affecting the other things in your life longer than that, it’s an issue and you shouldn’t be seeking out female companionship until you get your own house in order fren.

Edit: Is this your first LTR with a woman?

Even my dogs have more purpose in life then fucking and popping out a few pups. This can be seen in their excitement for something as mundane as a walk. Of course you have to propagate the race, but that's no reason to not enjoy life, see the world and have hobbies.

You're envious of others who are married and have kids, and envious of a potential/alternative you who is married with kids. Envy and comparisons to others is the thief of joy. We're supposed to be thankful for all that we have, not be covetous of the things we don't have. If our mentality is centered around what we don't have, rather than what we do have, we'll be constantly depressed, angry, and wanting for more, and no matter how many gifts are rained upon us, it could never fill the covetous hole in our soul that forever thirsts for more.


This is one of the core tenets of this forum, to stop ourselves from mindless consumption to fill a void in ourselves that can't be filled by consumption and wanting for more. We must be continually thankful for what we have, a necessary mindset to stave off depression and useless anger. God is teaching you a very hard lesson, but one of the most important ones. God taught me the same thing when I had on/off depression starting when I was 15.


The best thing that got me through the depression was finding someone I could talk to, to just listen to me vent. I recommend a male friend or a close family member.


Stay strong brother. I care about you, and I know everyone else here does, too.