I have some serious issues lads and I think it's all spawning from crippling depression. I simply can not find a purpose in life. Furthermore, I am horribly lonely. I finally managed to have a girl stick around for a few months but she left me. For those few months I felt like a real person.
I simply can't get motivated enough to pull myself from the pit. Consume Product and clean living kings turned my life around years ago but I am falling back into the abyss.
How does one cure crippling depression? God's trials are killing me.
I've found small victories are the key. Fix something around the house, or something to that effect. I like wrenching on ATVs as well - maybe something like that might interest you. Look on FB for groups from your area, they'll often organize trips with a bunch of people. Lots of friends to be made offroading as you're pulling each other out of the mud. You might meet someone interesting or someone who has an interesting sister.
Once I gave up the idea that I may never marry or reproduce I felt a sense of calm. I want to serve the Lord first, and foremost, if these things can be added onto me in my quest, awesome. If not, that’s okay too.
Read John 15
https://www.esv.org/John+15/
These ? Might seem anecdotal but they are not.
Are you a combat veteran, are you fornicating out of wedlock and are you living in some leftist shithole?
Edit: Is this your first LTR with a woman?
>Is this your first LTR with a woman?
Yes.
You’ll be ok fren. This is all totally normal. It just means you’re a normal well functioning human being and not a POS socio/psychopath. I know it’s hard to believe in our current kike world, but that’s a good thing. You’ll come out of this stronger than before, and will be better for it. Just curious, but what age range are you?
>the despair/depression may last up to a month
I think I have been living with depression for my entire life tbh. I just never really thought about it.
This is one of the core tenets of this forum, to stop ourselves from mindless consumption to fill a void in ourselves that can't be filled by consumption and wanting for more. We must be continually thankful for what we have, a necessary mindset to stave off depression and useless anger. God is teaching you a very hard lesson, but one of the most important ones. God taught me the same thing when I had on/off depression starting when I was 15.
The best thing that got me through the depression was finding someone I could talk to, to just listen to me vent. I recommend a male friend or a close family member.
Stay strong brother. I care about you, and I know everyone else here does, too.