I have always had problems getting girls. Idk what it is about me but they just dont like anything about who I am. My first impression usually has them running away. If I get through that then they run away after talking to me for 5 minutes. It has been like this since I got out of HS.
I'm on the come up now. I'm starting to make decent money and about to take the gym to the next level.
I fear that I am going to hate whatever woman meets me at the finish line. How can I respect or love somebody who I know would've hated me before success? What other options do I have celibacy?? Nah. Any of you niggers got some good material I can use to better my game without making me a cuck?
It appears there is an inherent problem with you which they recognize after merely 5 minutes of talking to you. It's unlikely it's your visuals, it could be the topics you talk about, your personality, your humor (or lack thereof), your confidence, or something like that.
> How can I respect or love somebody who I know would've hated me before success?
Simple. If you were in their position, would you have dated someone like yourself in the past? The fact you improved means 1. you are in a better state, 2. you are capable of self-improvement. You cannot blame them for not wanting you in a worse state without proving your capability to self-improve.
> without making me a cuck?
Never be a cuck, or rather weak. That's a losing strategy. Even if they get what they want in the short-term, in the long term she will resent you for being weak. Women HATE weakness with a burning fury, and they like physical and mental strength, and I don't see a good reason why a man should portray himself as weak anyway.
You'll need to find a good balance in maintaining the optics of strength while courting a woman.
Oh and income. If you can't maintain a family financially, what the fuck do you even expect? That means a lot of struggle for at least years, maybe decades. Unless she does, then it means you are the weak link, and she will resent you no matter what you do to compensate.