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ScipioAfricanus1911 on scored.co
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The German word "Fernweh" is what you are describing, essentially a longing for a place you've never been. While that is the literal definition, I think the cause of it is ancestral memory coded into our Aryan DNA.
I empathize and understand how you feel; I felt the same way for a long time. A man out of place & in the wrong time. Born either 200 years too early or 200 years too late.
Here's the thing though: For a long time now I have come to believe in my bones & in my soul that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, right here and now. At this pivotal time where the future of our race is to be decided. Where on one hand we return to our rightful place as the caretakers & leaders of all, and create abundance and beauty like those who came before us did; that divine spark that makes things that seem impossible exist and undeniable. Or on the other hand, we are destroyed and with us all the history and knowledge of our whole folk. That will not be permitted to happen. It makes things a lot easier when there is no alternative.
The thing that changed in me that allowed for this perspective started when I returned to Christ Jesus, and grew from that like a mighty Oak tree. The shift in perspective was this: I would've been happier or at least certainly more content and pleased with life in other eras were my talents alone would've allowed me to build a good life, instead of being back stabbed & stymied at every turn for the crime of being a White man who excels... but life isn't about being happy or experiencing pleasure. A man's life should be about service, service to family and service to folk. And in this place & time, that service includes a great deal of suffering. So be it, if my suffering allows my kith & kin who come after me to enjoy the splendor of our deeds... that is exactly the life I want to live and the legacy I want to leave.
I empathize and understand how you feel; I felt the same way for a long time. A man out of place & in the wrong time. Born either 200 years too early or 200 years too late.
Here's the thing though: For a long time now I have come to believe in my bones & in my soul that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, right here and now. At this pivotal time where the future of our race is to be decided. Where on one hand we return to our rightful place as the caretakers & leaders of all, and create abundance and beauty like those who came before us did; that divine spark that makes things that seem impossible exist and undeniable. Or on the other hand, we are destroyed and with us all the history and knowledge of our whole folk. That will not be permitted to happen. It makes things a lot easier when there is no alternative.
The thing that changed in me that allowed for this perspective started when I returned to Christ Jesus, and grew from that like a mighty Oak tree. The shift in perspective was this: I would've been happier or at least certainly more content and pleased with life in other eras were my talents alone would've allowed me to build a good life, instead of being back stabbed & stymied at every turn for the crime of being a White man who excels... but life isn't about being happy or experiencing pleasure. A man's life should be about service, service to family and service to folk. And in this place & time, that service includes a great deal of suffering. So be it, if my suffering allows my kith & kin who come after me to enjoy the splendor of our deeds... that is exactly the life I want to live and the legacy I want to leave.