16 hours ago5 points(+0/-0/+5Score on mirror)2 children
I struggle with technology addiction (doom scrolling.)
I manage to be very high functioning around it, working 50 hours per week, doing a calisthenics routine every couple days, writing thousands of words per month, but it still manages to suck way too much of my time and energy. And it compromises the efficiency of those other things in the process.
The hardest part is realizing that to go through withdrawal from it you have to spend long stretches every day literally doing nothing but just sitting in silence—for weeks on end until the brain reconstitutes itself. Feels like psychological planking when you've been used to 24/7 stimulation for so long.
That's a hard one for me too. At my job, sometimes there's very little to do, so it's easy to start SCROOOOOLLING.
If I catch myself doing it, I look at the clock and think about what I could've gotten done in that amount of time. I'm getting back into reading, and I'm trying to do that when the urge strikes.
17 hours ago4 points(+0/-0/+4Score on mirror)1 child
Nothing wrong with beer if you’re drinking in moderation and it’s not some shitty liquid goyslop brand. There’s some great local breweries where I live but unfortunately the owners are always very faggy.
My town has a bunch of breweries but they're all very expensive and don't digest as well as the cheap goyslop beer. It's beer, so I'm not looking for something healthy or flavorful, I'm looking for something to drink without getting hammered. Like it's already a bad habit lol I would have the same philosophy about candy if I ate it.
13 hours ago2 points(+0/-0/+2Score on mirror)2 children
I struggle with my intense ADHD and autism symptoms, and my addiction to cheap dopamine cycles like sugar, porn, and scrolling.
I’ve known for over a decade now how bad porn is, yet I still can’t kick it. It doesn’t help how poor my ability to stay consistent and break/form new habits.
Lord knows how hard I’ve tried to change my life and continue to fail.
All the overthinking, the brain fog, the chronic fatigue and anxiety, the low confidence and self loathing and sabotage. The executive function disorder and poor time management. The perfectionism, and autistic desire for routine, but ADHD never affording me the mental space to stick to it.
12 hours ago6 points(+0/-0/+6Score on mirror)2 children
Recommendation for porn: Don't stop jacking off, just stop using PMO.
Keep whatever your current frequency is to start, but force yourself to only use imagination (ideal) or a single still image as fuel. The thing that makes internet porn so bad is the dopamine supercharge you get from the endless *Click, Click, Clicking* between different tabs of novel sexual stimulus. That's the part where the heroin is entering your veins, not the touching your dick or orgasm.
There seems to be an unspoken implication that quitting porn = quitting all forms of sexual release that aren't sexual intercourse with the wife you don't have. It's not realistic. If you're a single man, you need to take care of your needs from time to time. Better to focus on doing it in the healthiest way possible than pretending you're celibate. If even that's a sin, then it's gotta be one of the most forgivable ones you can commit, especially nowadays.
Do this for long enough and the urge to do it constantly will naturally fade. You'll likely eventually stabilize somewhere between doing it weekly and monthly. You'll also find that using imagination doesn't leave you with that classic horrible wave of self loathing immediately after climax (chemical burnout.) In fact, it will likely leave you feeling refreshed if you aren't overdoing it.
This is what I did and I no longer suffer any of the acute symptoms of regular Internet PMO use, after well over a decade of addiction myself.
(accidentally deleted my initial draft of this fml)
I occasionally play too. It's effective at helping me de-stress. I decided to game with a conpro twist; I'm not buying any more of them. When I have time to game, I work on finishing achievements in the games I already have.
It's a fun extra challenge, and it makes me get better at the games I already own. No money spent, plenty of fun had.
15 hours ago1 point(+0/-0/+1Score on mirror)1 child
Nothing as far as habits go.
Granted, I started this journey almost 10 years ago now. So it's been quite some time. And I still find different ways to better what I'm doing, and I actively try to learn something new every day. That being said, I don't think there's many parts of me must die anymore, because those parts of me have been killed already.
I would say the only part of me that must die is chronic insomnia, which has plagued my life since I was in middle school and which is hereditary. It's probably the hardest beast I've ever had to fight. I'm high-functioning in spite of it, but still almost every day I am at least slightly exhausted at any given time, I don't remember what its like to have much energy.
Furthermore, I consider that Israel must be destroyed
That sounds tough to deal with. I'm sure you've heard every piece of unsolicited advice about insomnia, so I'll just say I'm praying for your good night's sleep.
I manage to be very high functioning around it, working 50 hours per week, doing a calisthenics routine every couple days, writing thousands of words per month, but it still manages to suck way too much of my time and energy. And it compromises the efficiency of those other things in the process.
The hardest part is realizing that to go through withdrawal from it you have to spend long stretches every day literally doing nothing but just sitting in silence—for weeks on end until the brain reconstitutes itself. Feels like psychological planking when you've been used to 24/7 stimulation for so long.
If I catch myself doing it, I look at the clock and think about what I could've gotten done in that amount of time. I'm getting back into reading, and I'm trying to do that when the urge strikes.