I have been cutting a significant amount of weight recently. The backstory to this is that I was powerlifting for a few years, got to my most recent goal weights, and decided to stop and lose the entire bulk because I was tired of sacrificing my health to move larger amounts of weight, I thought I looked ugly, and I was tired of feeling tired. I wasn't "fat" in the traditional sense, but definitely overweight. Rather bulky, inflexible, and had bad cardio.
Anyways, I have been on a major calorie restriction since then. But, after losing more and more weight and now being quite lithe (i lose weight very quickly), I have been having more... disgust towards fat people, and towards people eating gluttonous amounts of food in general, and towards shit food itself.
Seeing someone (especially if they are obese) eat a large pile of goyslop gives me a reaction of *visceral disgust*. It makes me want to vomit. I was watching a YouTube documentary about why "mukbang" videos online are bad, and it made me want to vomit. I feel more repulsed by these videos than by fucking cartel footage. Very fat people look utterly repulsive to me in every aspect, like something I would never want to be in any circumstance. Even seeing or smelling junk food and goyslop makes me experience phantom heart-burn and digestive issues.
I have gotten to the point where I don't even want to talk to fats at all, to be honest. Not out of judgment of them, but because of the fact that I hate looking at them and I can't even help it. Either that or I can't look away, like a train crash I just have to ogle and be amazed and disgusted.
What gives? Is this a normal reaction? I expected to find these things less appealing as I got thinner, but I did not expect it to be as extreme as it actually is. Funny thing is, I never ate these things at all. I was clean bulking when powerlifting (but weight is weight, and I felt like shit anyways, but probably not anywhere near as shit as a dirty bulker or God forbid a lardass). I have pretty much the same diet now as always, just way less food.
Furthermore, I consider that Israel must be destroyed.
Precisely why I can no longer eat at buffets. It causes a visceral reaction. And I am amazed at how much food fatties DON'T eat at buffets. I see them walk away leaving huge piles of uneaten food. We don't hate these people enough.
>What gives? Is this a normal reaction?
Yes. It is. I fought it for a while, but I gave up and embraced my inner snob. Every day, I (and I imagine you do too) get up with the express intent of improving myself in mind, body, and spirit over what I was yesterday. I don't compete with anyone but the man in the mirror, and every day I seek to be better than he was yesterday, and I intend for my tomorrow self to be better than the me today. This is my Self, and this is my Life.
We are surrounded by a sea of people who do nothing to improve themselves. As we improve more and more of ourselves, we get further and further ahead of those losers (and they are losers) who dont improve anything. After a while, you might start to think you're better than everybody else. It's easy to think that because guess what? If you're putting in the work and making the sacrifices, you ARE better than everyone else. While there will always be someone who is bigger, smarter, better than us, and this should also humble us, don't be afraid to be better than the AvErAgE JoE. Embrace your inner snob. You worked for it. You earned it. Fuck them.