Read my previous post for context.
Things didn't work out. I tried to take all your advice in consideration and it turns out she wasn't as honest as I thought. That's alright, I needed to find out if it was worth it and it wasn't. But obviously the principal problem is that I'm not in the condition to look for a serious woman, because I need to not be a sex addict first.
I had to work against myself to push her away when I realized I was wasting my time because I really liked having sex with her, and that shit occupies a lot of space in my head. And sometimes I feel like the only thing I want is more sex. This is obviously not good and it distracts me a lot from important stuff and I just can't seem to stop thinking about that. I feel like I'm broken at this point, and I don't really have the willpower to just push through I think.
Now I want to find a woman just cause I want sex but then it will be the same shit all over again and I don't want that. Any advice? How do I stop thinking about sex?
For me, I have an avoidant attachment style. I probably will for the rest of my life, but now that I know what causes it and what emotions I feel in response to certain stimulus, I can identify the emotions and not let them influence my decisions like I did with past relationships before I was able to understand what was going on. This is essentially the core principle of emotional intelligence. If you can use the logical part of your brain to identify the emotion you are feeling along with its source and the reason you are feeling it, you can control it instead of being controlled by it.
https://www.helpguide.org/relationships/social-connection/attachment-and-adult-relationships
I just think this is a good place to start because it helped me realize that you need to look farther back to your childhood to find the root of some of your problems. Many ingrained detrimental behaviors or habits come from fucked up shit that happened in your childhood. They are basically unhealthy coping mechanisms because you didn't get what you needed when you were developing.