Read my previous post for context.
Things didn't work out. I tried to take all your advice in consideration and it turns out she wasn't as honest as I thought. That's alright, I needed to find out if it was worth it and it wasn't. But obviously the principal problem is that I'm not in the condition to look for a serious woman, because I need to not be a sex addict first.
I had to work against myself to push her away when I realized I was wasting my time because I really liked having sex with her, and that shit occupies a lot of space in my head. And sometimes I feel like the only thing I want is more sex. This is obviously not good and it distracts me a lot from important stuff and I just can't seem to stop thinking about that. I feel like I'm broken at this point, and I don't really have the willpower to just push through I think.
Now I want to find a woman just cause I want sex but then it will be the same shit all over again and I don't want that. Any advice? How do I stop thinking about sex?
Also, stop using condoms. Sex by itself is pointless when decoupled from its purpose to make children. If people would stop using unnatural contraceptives, they'd see how "risky" sex really is, with the "danger" of a pregnancy. Once the contraceptive mindset is gone then, the long-term prospects of the partner suddenly start to matter a lot.
Sidenote, the amount of white nationalists who harp online about the death of Europe, but then only end up with 1 - 2 children themselves will never fail to surprise me.