Read my previous post for context.
Things didn't work out. I tried to take all your advice in consideration and it turns out she wasn't as honest as I thought. That's alright, I needed to find out if it was worth it and it wasn't. But obviously the principal problem is that I'm not in the condition to look for a serious woman, because I need to not be a sex addict first.
I had to work against myself to push her away when I realized I was wasting my time because I really liked having sex with her, and that shit occupies a lot of space in my head. And sometimes I feel like the only thing I want is more sex. This is obviously not good and it distracts me a lot from important stuff and I just can't seem to stop thinking about that. I feel like I'm broken at this point, and I don't really have the willpower to just push through I think.
Now I want to find a woman just cause I want sex but then it will be the same shit all over again and I don't want that. Any advice? How do I stop thinking about sex?
I know talk of "trauma" in the mental health sense tends to live in the realm of leftism, while over here we talk more about just toughing through it, give it to God, etc. Those things are well and good, but I strongly believe based on my lived experience that most people today have been seriously fucked up in their developmental years in some way. This is *invariably* the case for anyone who suffers from any form of sexual dysfunction (which it sounds like you do.)
And if the damage runs deeply enough, you won't fully resolve it if you don't approach it with intellectual honesty on therapeutic grounds (even if you are your own therapist.) Otherwise you won't actually be able to integrate it and anchor to the world in a healthy manner, no matter how hard you try to mask it in a can-do attitude, prayer, or stoicism.