For starters, I do not want this at all. It is not a political statement that I have these feelings, I did not choose it at all. I have actually had a very sheltered and conservative upbringing, without any exposure to lgbt things, and yet I still grew to have these feelings.
To be honest, it actually makes me very sad. Sad because, my 'community' is full of people that groomed young women I know to get mastectomies and take hormones, to make their sexual feelings their identity. Sad, because I believe in nature being a perfect blueprint that I am not following.
I think it's beautiful that two people can be a couple, and have children that are the result of their love, and carry both of their genes, and embody the harmony of duality (male and female). Yet, for some reason, as long as I can remember, only women excite me. I genuine cannot finish unless I'm thinking of p*ssy or thighs or t1ts, and I feel like I've been built the wrong way around. I tried kissing a guy, and nothing further, but it felt like nothing to me- whereas even just standing in the same room as this girl I liked, just looking in her eyes, made me feel dizzy with excitement. For many girls, I have felt this, tall red heads, emos, cute brown eyed girls.
I have not found a woman who loves me, and yet quite a few men wanted to date me - so being a lesbian means basically celibacy; I definitely wouldn't choose it. I wish I could love my best friend. We almost share a brain and soul, we made many creative projects together, I learned his language (dutch/nederlands) and he learned all these scottish words my loud family uses so it doesn't just sound like foreign shrieking lol. We genuinely care for each other so selflessly. I know he wanted to marry me, and proposed, but I feel absolutely nothing romantically with men, they just look neutral and have never made me feel a thing. But it would've been perfect for us to be together, if I could just be attracted to him, which I can't, and it's a shame, because I have never met someone so clever or good hearted, who saw the truth in this world.
It's a shame, because in addition to some carpentry projects, and visiting antarctica, one of my life ambitions is to be a mother. I'm probably not old enough to be one, and yet already I know that I have a lot of heart for children and loved looking after them when it was my job to do so. However, I don't think it looks right, to see a child with two mothers. A family with a mother and father just seems so complete.
I don't agree with everything you guys say on here. I don't believe that white people are better than others, but it's definitely meaningful to care for your family and people, and understand that some tight knit people in this world wield influence over human beings in an unfair way, that culture is being eradicated, that the narrative is controlled. I am posting this here, because I think this is the only place where people will speculate on the situation without encouraging me to blindly accept my condition. Why do you think I am this way? Would I be able to change? What would you do in my shoes? (inb4 kys)
To be honest, it actually makes me very sad. Sad because, my 'community' is full of people that groomed young women I know to get mastectomies and take hormones, to make their sexual feelings their identity. Sad, because I believe in nature being a perfect blueprint that I am not following.
I think it's beautiful that two people can be a couple, and have children that are the result of their love, and carry both of their genes, and embody the harmony of duality (male and female). Yet, for some reason, as long as I can remember, only women excite me. I genuine cannot finish unless I'm thinking of p*ssy or thighs or t1ts, and I feel like I've been built the wrong way around. I tried kissing a guy, and nothing further, but it felt like nothing to me- whereas even just standing in the same room as this girl I liked, just looking in her eyes, made me feel dizzy with excitement. For many girls, I have felt this, tall red heads, emos, cute brown eyed girls.
I have not found a woman who loves me, and yet quite a few men wanted to date me - so being a lesbian means basically celibacy; I definitely wouldn't choose it. I wish I could love my best friend. We almost share a brain and soul, we made many creative projects together, I learned his language (dutch/nederlands) and he learned all these scottish words my loud family uses so it doesn't just sound like foreign shrieking lol. We genuinely care for each other so selflessly. I know he wanted to marry me, and proposed, but I feel absolutely nothing romantically with men, they just look neutral and have never made me feel a thing. But it would've been perfect for us to be together, if I could just be attracted to him, which I can't, and it's a shame, because I have never met someone so clever or good hearted, who saw the truth in this world.
It's a shame, because in addition to some carpentry projects, and visiting antarctica, one of my life ambitions is to be a mother. I'm probably not old enough to be one, and yet already I know that I have a lot of heart for children and loved looking after them when it was my job to do so. However, I don't think it looks right, to see a child with two mothers. A family with a mother and father just seems so complete.
I don't agree with everything you guys say on here. I don't believe that white people are better than others, but it's definitely meaningful to care for your family and people, and understand that some tight knit people in this world wield influence over human beings in an unfair way, that culture is being eradicated, that the narrative is controlled. I am posting this here, because I think this is the only place where people will speculate on the situation without encouraging me to blindly accept my condition. Why do you think I am this way? Would I be able to change? What would you do in my shoes? (inb4 kys)
i never really understood lesbianism myself since most lesbians can't really pleasure themselves without a penis-shaped object
like if lesbianism was real their toys would look like pussies and not phalluses, but who knows there might be a few who are like actual lesbians due to hormonal deficiency
I don't have 'toys' and my favourite way to do things is just to hump stuff like a pillow. But that's more embarrassing because that means I'm acting like a man on instinct. Many homo women prefer 'tribbing' which is about friction, and a few each other's finger, not anything that looks like a phallus. I do think that some are repressed because of trauma and would like to be with a guy, like if they go for masculine women often. However, I really like feminine women. Which is counterintuitive, because being with a feminine woman would mean she couldn't protect me if I was vulnerable, or be a father figure to a son.
so in your own words, you would rather have a father figure than a feminine woman? why not just go for a man? if its really about friction without penetration that can be done as well
but i get what you're saying, you are attractive to femininity which can be only found on women (or gay faggots, which is false femininity)
masculinity repels you the same way faggots repel me (and trust me, i've been hit on by plenty of faggots in my life, being a burly lad will do that to you)
overall i think you should rethink your strategy if you want long-term stability and life-fulfillment
>rethink your strategy if you want long term stability and life fulfilment
That's it, 'long term'. As in, it's either have passion and romance (which is short lived anyway) with a beautiful woman, or have trust, stability, building a home and family with a man who very much loves me (for example my friend), which would be long term fulfilment. So option two seems worth it in the long run.
To be honest, gay men have very high standards so that is quite a compliment, even if it is gross to you lol
so you understand that everything is mendable and your best course of action is take your friend on his offer and build a family with him, if he's the right kind of man (masculine and honorable) that would be ideal for your children
again, you'll probably "guide" him in the bedroom so "passion" is not really an issue if you can adapt
>To be honest, gay men have very high standards so that is quite a compliment, even if it is gross to you lol
Well they did boost my ego but i was more disgusted than flattered, esp when one of the faggots propositioned me to cheat on his boyfriend (it made me feel physically ill and i outright disgust) i swear faggots embody the worst traits of women and none of the good traits of men (like Honor, Loyalty, Long-term planning etc...) i can easily see why most of History wanted faggots burned at a stake
though i'll be honest, i think most queers are queers not because they are genuinely attracted to men, its most likely because they were molested or "recruited" into the gay-lifestyle due to autism and no father figure
yet still even as disgusted as i was with him, i tried to redpill on the gay agenda, on (((Quota))) that supermarkets have saying he only got the job because he fits the checkmarks
he didn't believe me at first, but then i pointed to all the sheniqua cashiers, the old cripples (disability checkmark) and the dangerhair Femoids (Foid checkmark) and successfully managed to make him understand they hired him not because he's a great asset to the company, but because he's gay and autistic and thus fulfils two checkmarks and gets paid more than regular cashiers (i've asked, they said they paid minimum for me but for him he gets paid like 50% more)
he was pretty much in denial at first but then the next time i saw him he pretty much admitted i had a point as he asked his co-workers how much they make and realized they paid him more due to his "special" status...