For starters, I do not want this at all. It is not a political statement that I have these feelings, I did not choose it at all. I have actually had a very sheltered and conservative upbringing, without any exposure to lgbt things, and yet I still grew to have these feelings.
To be honest, it actually makes me very sad. Sad because, my 'community' is full of people that groomed young women I know to get mastectomies and take hormones, to make their sexual feelings their identity. Sad, because I believe in nature being a perfect blueprint that I am not following.
I think it's beautiful that two people can be a couple, and have children that are the result of their love, and carry both of their genes, and embody the harmony of duality (male and female). Yet, for some reason, as long as I can remember, only women excite me. I genuine cannot finish unless I'm thinking of p*ssy or thighs or t1ts, and I feel like I've been built the wrong way around. I tried kissing a guy, and nothing further, but it felt like nothing to me- whereas even just standing in the same room as this girl I liked, just looking in her eyes, made me feel dizzy with excitement. For many girls, I have felt this, tall red heads, emos, cute brown eyed girls.
I have not found a woman who loves me, and yet quite a few men wanted to date me - so being a lesbian means basically celibacy; I definitely wouldn't choose it. I wish I could love my best friend. We almost share a brain and soul, we made many creative projects together, I learned his language (dutch/nederlands) and he learned all these scottish words my loud family uses so it doesn't just sound like foreign shrieking lol. We genuinely care for each other so selflessly. I know he wanted to marry me, and proposed, but I feel absolutely nothing romantically with men, they just look neutral and have never made me feel a thing. But it would've been perfect for us to be together, if I could just be attracted to him, which I can't, and it's a shame, because I have never met someone so clever or good hearted, who saw the truth in this world.
It's a shame, because in addition to some carpentry projects, and visiting antarctica, one of my life ambitions is to be a mother. I'm probably not old enough to be one, and yet already I know that I have a lot of heart for children and loved looking after them when it was my job to do so. However, I don't think it looks right, to see a child with two mothers. A family with a mother and father just seems so complete.
I don't agree with everything you guys say on here. I don't believe that white people are better than others, but it's definitely meaningful to care for your family and people, and understand that some tight knit people in this world wield influence over human beings in an unfair way, that culture is being eradicated, that the narrative is controlled. I am posting this here, because I think this is the only place where people will speculate on the situation without encouraging me to blindly accept my condition. Why do you think I am this way? Would I be able to change? What would you do in my shoes? (inb4 kys)
To be honest, it actually makes me very sad. Sad because, my 'community' is full of people that groomed young women I know to get mastectomies and take hormones, to make their sexual feelings their identity. Sad, because I believe in nature being a perfect blueprint that I am not following.
I think it's beautiful that two people can be a couple, and have children that are the result of their love, and carry both of their genes, and embody the harmony of duality (male and female). Yet, for some reason, as long as I can remember, only women excite me. I genuine cannot finish unless I'm thinking of p*ssy or thighs or t1ts, and I feel like I've been built the wrong way around. I tried kissing a guy, and nothing further, but it felt like nothing to me- whereas even just standing in the same room as this girl I liked, just looking in her eyes, made me feel dizzy with excitement. For many girls, I have felt this, tall red heads, emos, cute brown eyed girls.
I have not found a woman who loves me, and yet quite a few men wanted to date me - so being a lesbian means basically celibacy; I definitely wouldn't choose it. I wish I could love my best friend. We almost share a brain and soul, we made many creative projects together, I learned his language (dutch/nederlands) and he learned all these scottish words my loud family uses so it doesn't just sound like foreign shrieking lol. We genuinely care for each other so selflessly. I know he wanted to marry me, and proposed, but I feel absolutely nothing romantically with men, they just look neutral and have never made me feel a thing. But it would've been perfect for us to be together, if I could just be attracted to him, which I can't, and it's a shame, because I have never met someone so clever or good hearted, who saw the truth in this world.
It's a shame, because in addition to some carpentry projects, and visiting antarctica, one of my life ambitions is to be a mother. I'm probably not old enough to be one, and yet already I know that I have a lot of heart for children and loved looking after them when it was my job to do so. However, I don't think it looks right, to see a child with two mothers. A family with a mother and father just seems so complete.
I don't agree with everything you guys say on here. I don't believe that white people are better than others, but it's definitely meaningful to care for your family and people, and understand that some tight knit people in this world wield influence over human beings in an unfair way, that culture is being eradicated, that the narrative is controlled. I am posting this here, because I think this is the only place where people will speculate on the situation without encouraging me to blindly accept my condition. Why do you think I am this way? Would I be able to change? What would you do in my shoes? (inb4 kys)
If we were focused on destroying Jews, they'd be gone. The only reason they aren't is because we are pursuing the ultimate Good, not our immediate self-interest. This will result in our death first, but then our ressurection as an even better people, free of the corruption that is even now tainting us.
>Why are neo-"nazis", white nationalists, and white supremacists all methheads and tattoo consoomers?
Think about it. I don't need to build my entire identity around White supremacy because my own life exemplifies it.
Who needs to build their identity around the idea that they are superior *because* of their identity groul? The people who *don't think they themselves measure up*.