If I may ask, how old are you? You mentioned that you believed you were too young to be a mother. I'd like to point out that, biologically, humans are designed to start having families at about 16-20. The state of the world has pushed that back about 10 years, and it has had extremely negative effects. So, I dont want to be crude, but depending on your age, your mind and body might just not know what go do or how to feel because you haven't had sex with a man (I assume..) by that age range.