For starters, I do not want this at all. It is not a political statement that I have these feelings, I did not choose it at all. I have actually had a very sheltered and conservative upbringing, without any exposure to lgbt things, and yet I still grew to have these feelings.
To be honest, it actually makes me very sad. Sad because, my 'community' is full of people that groomed young women I know to get mastectomies and take hormones, to make their sexual feelings their identity. Sad, because I believe in nature being a perfect blueprint that I am not following.
I think it's beautiful that two people can be a couple, and have children that are the result of their love, and carry both of their genes, and embody the harmony of duality (male and female). Yet, for some reason, as long as I can remember, only women excite me. I genuine cannot finish unless I'm thinking of p*ssy or thighs or t1ts, and I feel like I've been built the wrong way around. I tried kissing a guy, and nothing further, but it felt like nothing to me- whereas even just standing in the same room as this girl I liked, just looking in her eyes, made me feel dizzy with excitement. For many girls, I have felt this, tall red heads, emos, cute brown eyed girls.
I have not found a woman who loves me, and yet quite a few men wanted to date me - so being a lesbian means basically celibacy; I definitely wouldn't choose it. I wish I could love my best friend. We almost share a brain and soul, we made many creative projects together, I learned his language (dutch/nederlands) and he learned all these scottish words my loud family uses so it doesn't just sound like foreign shrieking lol. We genuinely care for each other so selflessly. I know he wanted to marry me, and proposed, but I feel absolutely nothing romantically with men, they just look neutral and have never made me feel a thing. But it would've been perfect for us to be together, if I could just be attracted to him, which I can't, and it's a shame, because I have never met someone so clever or good hearted, who saw the truth in this world.
It's a shame, because in addition to some carpentry projects, and visiting antarctica, one of my life ambitions is to be a mother. I'm probably not old enough to be one, and yet already I know that I have a lot of heart for children and loved looking after them when it was my job to do so. However, I don't think it looks right, to see a child with two mothers. A family with a mother and father just seems so complete.
I don't agree with everything you guys say on here. I don't believe that white people are better than others, but it's definitely meaningful to care for your family and people, and understand that some tight knit people in this world wield influence over human beings in an unfair way, that culture is being eradicated, that the narrative is controlled. I am posting this here, because I think this is the only place where people will speculate on the situation without encouraging me to blindly accept my condition. Why do you think I am this way? Would I be able to change? What would you do in my shoes? (inb4 kys)
To be honest, it actually makes me very sad. Sad because, my 'community' is full of people that groomed young women I know to get mastectomies and take hormones, to make their sexual feelings their identity. Sad, because I believe in nature being a perfect blueprint that I am not following.
I think it's beautiful that two people can be a couple, and have children that are the result of their love, and carry both of their genes, and embody the harmony of duality (male and female). Yet, for some reason, as long as I can remember, only women excite me. I genuine cannot finish unless I'm thinking of p*ssy or thighs or t1ts, and I feel like I've been built the wrong way around. I tried kissing a guy, and nothing further, but it felt like nothing to me- whereas even just standing in the same room as this girl I liked, just looking in her eyes, made me feel dizzy with excitement. For many girls, I have felt this, tall red heads, emos, cute brown eyed girls.
I have not found a woman who loves me, and yet quite a few men wanted to date me - so being a lesbian means basically celibacy; I definitely wouldn't choose it. I wish I could love my best friend. We almost share a brain and soul, we made many creative projects together, I learned his language (dutch/nederlands) and he learned all these scottish words my loud family uses so it doesn't just sound like foreign shrieking lol. We genuinely care for each other so selflessly. I know he wanted to marry me, and proposed, but I feel absolutely nothing romantically with men, they just look neutral and have never made me feel a thing. But it would've been perfect for us to be together, if I could just be attracted to him, which I can't, and it's a shame, because I have never met someone so clever or good hearted, who saw the truth in this world.
It's a shame, because in addition to some carpentry projects, and visiting antarctica, one of my life ambitions is to be a mother. I'm probably not old enough to be one, and yet already I know that I have a lot of heart for children and loved looking after them when it was my job to do so. However, I don't think it looks right, to see a child with two mothers. A family with a mother and father just seems so complete.
I don't agree with everything you guys say on here. I don't believe that white people are better than others, but it's definitely meaningful to care for your family and people, and understand that some tight knit people in this world wield influence over human beings in an unfair way, that culture is being eradicated, that the narrative is controlled. I am posting this here, because I think this is the only place where people will speculate on the situation without encouraging me to blindly accept my condition. Why do you think I am this way? Would I be able to change? What would you do in my shoes? (inb4 kys)
Incorrect parenting and/or parasitic infection.
>I do not want this at all
Then it’s clearly not a part of you, which you recognize, and is a sickness that can be cured.
>Yet, for some reason, as long as I can remember, only women excite me.
You can reset your neurology against this.
>one of my life ambitions is to be a mother. I'm probably not old enough to be one
*[squints suspiciously]*
>Why do you think I am this way?
*Toxoplasma gondii.*
>Would I be able to change?
100% yes.
I thought you meant that... or was it something else?
I know someone there claimed a "vaseline (or similar) cleansing" got rid of his urges... *T. gondii* is a pretty good candidate for the cause of faggotry, but I’ve not heard anything about ivermectin doing anything to stop it.
> Homosexuality is caused by parasites.
> (((Psychologists))) try to explain it as having some sort of social benefits, but the problem is it still is subject to natural selection.
> Anti-parasitics (Ivermectin etc) cures homosexuality. Homosexuals are so horny for buttfucking and a disturbing amount of homosexuals are into shit eating because the parasites need to acquire new hosts.
And the reason why they opposed Ivermectin during the coof-hysteria was essentially [this](https://bioenergetic.forum/topic/616/curing-homosexuality-with-ivermectin-and-other-anti-parasitic-drugs):
> One of the big conspiracies during Covid was that they didn't want mass use of Ivermectin and it would cure (some) cases of homosexuality as some have speculated Homosexuality (especially the passive variety) to (sometimes) be the result of parasites.
Well, it is somewhat plausible. Although why would even a child allow himself to get groomed and molested if he is not infected yet? While it is possible that behavior-altering parasites cause it, it cannot be more than a factor at best, that merely has a reinforcing psychological element to it.