I don't know what happened, but around 2020, I just lost all motivation whatsoever to write software.
I was working my last job, for a jew, and I got in an argument, yet again, about how to make sure the software does what it is supposed to do. He didn't want me to run tests with the software, and I told him if he's fine wasting his investments on untested software, that's his business, but he's paying me to write quality software, and I'm not going to be satisfied until I can prove to my client that the software works as advertised.
That's when he basically fired me.
I used to take pride in my work. Software was going to solve a number of the world's problems. Software is a unique engineering discipline with its own particular set of challenges, but it still shares a lot of similarities with other scientific endeavors.
Over my career, it shifted from mostly libertarians who were trying to get rich by making the best product ever, to chinks, jews, and pajeets who were trying to scam their way to profit. It came to a head when I was working for a major corporation, and I saw that I was one of 3 white guys on a team of almost 300. And the team leader wanted more diversity. I asked "How many more Chinese do we need to hire before they are properly represented?" Apparently all of them.
It was us 3 white guys who carried the weight of the entire team. No project moved forward unless we were on it. We were expected to share credit. We were expected to fix everyone's broken code. We were expected to write all the tests and get them all to work, and we were expected to keep everything running. Whenever there was a problem, they would turn the keys over to us, but if there was some sort of celebration or party, we weren't invited.
That's fine.
I had a weekly meeting setup with my manager and the lead engineers on the project to track stability and performance. I felt like the bugs that were slowing down a system where just a 10% improvement could save potentially billions of dollars a year were sort of important. The chinese manager never showed up. The other 2 white guys asked what the point was when no one cared what our opinion was, and just wanted us to fight fires. I was adamant that we should at least see where the smoke was coming from, so when we fought fires we could at least get to the source of the problem.
In the end, I was fired because I couldn't communicate. Really, there was a mission-critical project that they brought in 2 other developers who couldn't speak English. One of them picked up a critical task that had to be done before the project could proceed. Two months later on a one day task, and I had completed everything that could be done before his task was complete. Finally, I took a weekend to work on the task he had, and finished it in like 30 minutes. I went in Monday, showed him what I did as a suggestion for how he could finish the task, and was fired for it.
I used to love writing software, but now all the open source projects are woke. All the good developers have been silenced. The only thing people are doing nowadays is picking the color of the bike shed. No one is building any nuclear reactors. Not that I want to build software that some kike would claim as his own and build a multi-billion industry off of, while stealing me blind.
Even video games and video game programming is no longer interesting to me.
I just want to raise goats now. That's the only thing that brings me joy.
If I ever meet a depressed high-functioning white guy who has lost all hope in modern society, I'll show him how I raise goats, and we'll barbecue goats every weekend.
I was working my last job, for a jew, and I got in an argument, yet again, about how to make sure the software does what it is supposed to do. He didn't want me to run tests with the software, and I told him if he's fine wasting his investments on untested software, that's his business, but he's paying me to write quality software, and I'm not going to be satisfied until I can prove to my client that the software works as advertised.
That's when he basically fired me.
I used to take pride in my work. Software was going to solve a number of the world's problems. Software is a unique engineering discipline with its own particular set of challenges, but it still shares a lot of similarities with other scientific endeavors.
Over my career, it shifted from mostly libertarians who were trying to get rich by making the best product ever, to chinks, jews, and pajeets who were trying to scam their way to profit. It came to a head when I was working for a major corporation, and I saw that I was one of 3 white guys on a team of almost 300. And the team leader wanted more diversity. I asked "How many more Chinese do we need to hire before they are properly represented?" Apparently all of them.
It was us 3 white guys who carried the weight of the entire team. No project moved forward unless we were on it. We were expected to share credit. We were expected to fix everyone's broken code. We were expected to write all the tests and get them all to work, and we were expected to keep everything running. Whenever there was a problem, they would turn the keys over to us, but if there was some sort of celebration or party, we weren't invited.
That's fine.
I had a weekly meeting setup with my manager and the lead engineers on the project to track stability and performance. I felt like the bugs that were slowing down a system where just a 10% improvement could save potentially billions of dollars a year were sort of important. The chinese manager never showed up. The other 2 white guys asked what the point was when no one cared what our opinion was, and just wanted us to fight fires. I was adamant that we should at least see where the smoke was coming from, so when we fought fires we could at least get to the source of the problem.
In the end, I was fired because I couldn't communicate. Really, there was a mission-critical project that they brought in 2 other developers who couldn't speak English. One of them picked up a critical task that had to be done before the project could proceed. Two months later on a one day task, and I had completed everything that could be done before his task was complete. Finally, I took a weekend to work on the task he had, and finished it in like 30 minutes. I went in Monday, showed him what I did as a suggestion for how he could finish the task, and was fired for it.
I used to love writing software, but now all the open source projects are woke. All the good developers have been silenced. The only thing people are doing nowadays is picking the color of the bike shed. No one is building any nuclear reactors. Not that I want to build software that some kike would claim as his own and build a multi-billion industry off of, while stealing me blind.
Even video games and video game programming is no longer interesting to me.
I just want to raise goats now. That's the only thing that brings me joy.
If I ever meet a depressed high-functioning white guy who has lost all hope in modern society, I'll show him how I raise goats, and we'll barbecue goats every weekend.
The job market for tech is fucked beyond belief anyways. I searched for a part-time job or internship over the entire summer related to tech and found NOTHING. It's not like I live in the boonies either, I live in one of the most populated areas in my state. I only got one (1) interview for an internship and it went nowhere, asking me questions like "what projects do you work on outside of class", clearly hinting that they just want someone with experience already. Like as if I'm going to waste my time coding outside of class when I don't like it, lmao.
Literally no clue what I'm going to do after college. Maybe become a web designer, I kinda liked that. Web development wasn't too bad either, even if it was coding still, but I found it more digestible than normal coding. Maybe something like system administrator, idk.