I'm late seeing this, but perhaps I can still offer some comfort. You have already been forgiven. There is nothing we as humans can ever do to deserve God's forgiveness, yet through Jesus's death we are. This is the essence of the gospel: that you, despite your wickedest deeds past and future, have already been saved by the blood of Christ. So long as you don't reject His mercy, you will not go to Hell.
For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.
For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.