>“And as they departed, Jesus began to say unto the multitudes concerning John, What went ye out into the wilderness to see? A reed shaken with the wind?”
My faith wavers constantly, brothers. I am in sorrow because of loneliness. I am doubly minded. My heart yearns for those things which please the flesh and my soul commands me to follow those things which belong to Heaven. I have witnessed miracles in my life. There is no doubt in me that God reigns in Heaven and that Jesus Christ is his Son. Nevertheless, this world weighs heavy on me.
Also, i am not sorrowful when lonely. I would love time alone to work in my workshop and build stuff. I love to listen to the radio while i work on my truck or tractor. I'm alone and having a good time and enjoying my solitude and time to concentrate, play the radio station i like, do what i want to do. When you have kids your children demand a lot of attention and then you rarely get alone time anymore.
I don't know what you are so sad and whining about but you need to snap out of it. Your ancestors were far more tougher than you are and had to be alone without cellphones and the internet. Alone in the woods in winter with howling wolves around them.
Any luxurious solitude you get is opportunity to concentrate and do something productive.
Change your attitude. Where's your ambition? Stop moping and just do what it is you intend to do with determination. Stop making excuses or blaming the jews why you don't do shit to improve your own life. Figure out the first step and start.
God didn't make the world to weigh on you. He made it because it's beautiful and He gave you the privilege and opportunity to play in this magical place He created. Marvel at it. Explore it. The ugliest thing in the world is the wickedness that possesses people.